This has been a hard post to write. I am not sure exactly where I am going or which direction I should choose. The one thing I do know is that I need time. I am at a crossroads.
At a Crossroads – Which direction to choose
Last week I was told to just hang in there, to keep doing what I’m doing and that I would eventually get the attention of companies and people. How long am I supposed to keep doing that? I’ve been blogging for almost 9 years, and that hasn’t helped.
I don’t know if I can do that. I’m exhausted with trying. My self-confidence is plummeting and I don’t know how many more times I can face rejection.
This comes in so many ways. Everything I’ve tried been a big fat failure. People love what I share, love what information I give them and love how I help. I wish I could say I got something in return, but I rarely do.
I need to think everything through and work out what is going to be best for me.
The direction that I am leaning towards is working more as an artist, but that means I can’t keep doing all this social media. At least, not in the same way I have been.
Do I give it all up? Is it a waste of time. Should I give up photography and try to get a real job?
Do I stop posting photos and information everywhere, or just cut down?
I need to take time out to sit down and really think about what I want to do, to see what my options are.
I will continue doing Monochrome Madness for the time being, though other blog posts will be reposts, or very short ones. The same will be happening with my other social media platforms as well.
For the foreseeable future, I need to get some self-confidence back. I’m feeling too fragile right now.