It seems like something I say a lot, but I do feel as I get older I need to start making some changes in how I live and how I blog. You may have noticed that I haven’t been doing a lot in social media recently.
With Coronavirus, or COVID 19 we have been staying home. Australia has done quite well with it all, but staying home has been the norm for quite some time. Our state Premiers still want us to stay home if we can, and that is what we are choosing to do.
While having all this time at home it has given me a lot of time to think. And if I’m being honest time to explore other things. It shouldn’t come as a surprise that I have been doing a lot of food photography recently, which also means baking. I am in love with baking again. It is just a shame there are only two of us here in the house so I can’t bake too much.
So because of all of this I’ve come to realise, that while I love photography, I want to explore more things as well. Part of those changes are going to affect this blog.
Over the last few weeks I’ve toyed with the idea of giving up all my social media, this blog included. I’ve been blogging for 10 years now and it is something I’ve really enjoyed, but it has also brought a lot of heartache as well. I was given a lot of encouragement from people that made me want to try things in a business way but then they just failed. I’ve failed in so many things over the last 10 years. It has been very hard. How many times can a person fail for it to be good for their mental health?
Since making that decision to stop the business side of my photography I’ve never been happier. It feels like a load has been lifted. I also feel like I can do anything I want now. There is no need to keep putting myself out there for that failure. I don’t have to keep trying to find ways to make money. The pressure is gone.
So while that has happened what I do here, and on other social media sites I have, has been a problem. Or rather me not knowing what to do. I am still not sure what I will do, but I have a plan and it means there are going to be changes.
This blog’s focus is going to stop being solely on photography. For quite some time I’ve wanted to be able to talk about things that I am concerned about and never felt I could do it here. So I want to incorporate more aspects of my life. I want to be able to talk about my kitchen and cooking, or what life is like as a woman in her mid 50’s. How I see the world, where I came from and where I’m going.
Basically I am now a 55 year old housewife who loves to bake and to take photos. I’m also an artist who wants to concentrate on that more.
There will still be photos. I will still be going out to take photos and working on them in photoshop. I can’t give that up.
What I can stop doing is obsessing about it.
I can stop getting up at 6 am and spending all day on my computer trying to do things that I think others will like. Worrying about likes and comments. Being concerned that people won’t like what I’m doing. I can tell you right now it doesn’t make you happy.
Trying to be a professional photographer is so hard. I know many people thought I was successful, but really I wasn’t. I often wonder too about other photographers I see and wonder how successful they really are as well. So many people who pick up a camera want to be a professional. I say good luck, but really I’m thinking good luck with that.
The Future As I Get Older
I get that many aren’t interested in this and perhaps this might start to look more like a lifestyle blog, but I believe that women of my age are underrepresented and I want to give us a voice. It is something I’ve been trying to do with that other blog I started. However, if I’m honest, I just can’t keep two blogs going. So the best thing I can think of doing is melding the two together.
I should probably stop here. It is my wish that you will want to continue on this journey with me, but I understand if this wasn’t what you signed up for. I do hope you do stay.
The plan is to try and look at the world through my eyes, good or bad, yet to be determined. It isn’t going to become a cooking blog, I can assure you of that. I am too lazy to be writing out recipes, though I will do some on what I’m cooking, but I will give you the links. I hope that sounds okay.
So let’s see where we end up. Who knows what will happen. I hope we have some great discussions and lots of laughs. As I am getting older I know my values and what I want in life are changing and so I want that to be reflected more. There will be more posts on that coming up.
I really am stopping now, and I have a heap of food photos for you. They were all taking over the last few months. Did I tell you how much I love baking?
Because it seems like a nice thing to do, here is a link to one of my favourite YouTube channels right now, Cupcake Jemma.